I dunno where should i start from.. i wish what i'm going to face will onli be a dream...but all i could do was to face up to reality...
how many people could actually understand the hurt and anxiety i am going through.. how many people can i tell to about the things i'm going through...
At the start of today, i was sad... I did something wrong and i apologised to my dear... He was sad... i guess i hurt his heart... i didn't mean to... i'm sorrie... once again i tell u i'm sorrie...
He came to fetch me from school today... He sent me home.. We were okay... Like normal.. Remember the times when we just started seeing each other.. We went through alot ... but there were so many sweet memories.. sweet moments...
I can still remember how sweet those times were... Can it always remain that way ... ? Can our fairytale last forever... I've got my answer... We can... I nearly burst into tears when you told me the news... I tried very hard to hold back my tears... Why is all these happening.. ? I wanna stay strong... I wanna be strong... Is there anyone there for me ? I noe my dear is here for me... I am there for you too... forever... If one day, U're no longer by my side, for a very long time, who can I depend on...? who's shoulder can i cry on....? I suddenly feel so sad.. so lost.. so devastated...
I do not wish to face my computer everyday to find myself crying everytime i type something in...
Can i spent the rest of my life just by loving you ...?
I just have too much to say... too much... The only thing I want to tell you that is on my mind now is...
Bear in mind , if something were to happen, just remember , I'll wait no matter what...
I don't want to lose another guy... A guy who is always there for me...
One who would brave all storms and weathers just to ensure my safety...
What can i do to help you ... ?
I'm so sorrie... I feel so helpless... If only i can stop the tears from flowing out of my eyes...
If I had a wish , a wish which would come true right at this moment , I would wish for the time to stop now...To stop the guy whom I love from leaving... To let him stay by my side.. forever...
I know there is nothing I can do to help... I can only stay strong... strong till the day all storms are gone.. strong till the day when you are safely by my side again..
I cannot promise you I will be happy... I cannot promise you not I will not be sad... I'm sorry.. I just love you too much.. All these are beyond my abilities...
If something really happens, Dun worry, I'll be here, the same place where you left me, waiting for you... no matter how long... I love you...I'll keep the promise we have between us....